In Friday’s dream Mikhael gave me a little oil lamp, red, like the one I used (one of them) as model to paint Iesu Amor’s lamp. The difference between the two lamps is that this one was a lot smaller than the one I used.

It is exactly like these lamps

It is a beautiful lamp, I said… for what it is for, does it actually illuminate?

Mikhael smiled as the lamp begun to radiate light.

How did you light iy up?, I asked curiously

It wasn’t me, it’s the Holy Spirit. Its a mistery, the same mistery that brings new life into this world… but it needs your help to get lit, usually. Iesu Amor is an exception. In ordinary circumstances there is a woman and a man litting the lamp of new life, along the Holy Spirit action.

He winked at me: this is an exception…

How beautiful it glows, being so small…

All lives are beautiful since the very first instant of being conceived, and are worthy of rights since the very first moment…

Do you know what is this now?— Mikhael asked

A lamp… well, a mini lamp…

It is a lamp, filled with flamming Holy Spirit oil, but it is more than that… it is an ark of the covenant. Your charity alliance sparks in that fire, because it brings new life with the help of the Holy Spirit’s action, making spark more anr more new life that grows in communion since the very first intant of life, sparking with the dignity of humanity since the very first instant of life…

It is SO important to make an New Life Research Hospital to study how to help to grow best the most little ones… but you are all called as Christians to affirm the dignity of life, the dignity of this lamp, in all life stages, since conception to natural death…

The lamp kept shinninh beautifully

The mistery of new life is beautiful, Mikhael said. It is the mistery of the Holy Spirit’s action.

You need to teach your students the beautiful joy of new life and the dignity of every life since conception… human rights and fraternal rights belong to all, from conception to natural death…

So, this would be a kind of dignity beacon?

Sort of, yes…— Mikhael said

The light of the Spirit keeps sparking as you choose to Love as you are called to love, helping to grow each other in communion, since conception to natural death, like the Holy Family of New Albor does, helping to create a society where each light, were each life, can spark beautifully and amazingly bright.

The light of the Spirit keeps sparking as you choose to let your hearts be formed as custodians of the ark of the covenant that grows in your hearts, forming His heart as you let the Spirit act in you… (he looked at me) in a very deep and powerful way that transformed your life forever (he made a simple reverence with his heart to me, the same you would do when you pass by an altar)

Why you do that?

I am revering the life that has grown and will keep growing in you, princess of Heaven, Alma Mía. This Fiat Amor goes on a on…

He smiled at me tenderly…

So, you need to paint small lamps with your students.

How do you paint lamps?

The same way you paint cafeteras (I have seen people in schools and Chris painting cafeteras, but I have no idea what kind of painting they use. It is metal, I never paint metal, usually).

We are going to paint out little lamp in a very simple but powerful way, star of Heaven. We are going to splash it with silver, gold and metallic orange colors: unity of being and act, of words and works, of hands and hearts… a unity that only the Holy Spirit can make posible.

He handed me the wood domestic chalice and the art palette pattent, with a brush.

There you have it, splash it.

I put the brush inside the wood domestic chalice and everytime I put the brush inside there was “new wine paint” of a different color. The lamp ended very beautiful with splashes of the three colors. The splashes where done in the same way a priest would sprinkle (asperjar) blessed water to the people of God when they do that in mass.

The lamp was very well lit, but sparkled more.

Every light matters, no matter how small. Every dignity matters, not matter how small. Every person matters, no matter how small… simply, let yourself be known by the Holy Spirit, creating home, Church and Humanity that grows in more and more communion, giving everything to live the joy of creating family according to His plan, human, sacramental and civil family that gives everything to help to be, to help to do, to help to grow, to help to glow and to helpt to bloom as the living Eucharist you are called to be, as the living ark of covenant you are called to form as you become custodians of the new life that the Holy Spirit brings… becoming the living and pleasant offering you are called to be as you create home that creates Heaven, that creates living Eucharist, embracing His heart as you form it in You, embracing new life from the heart, since the first beating that only you can know in the Spirit, incarnating the new albor yes you are called to incarnate in unity to His heart, forming His heart in such way you both beat as one heart…

In last night’s dream Mikhael and I where in the beach when a white dove fluttered around us.

The dove layed herself in my hands… and Mikhael smiled.

—Do you receive the action of the Holy Spirit, beloved Alma Mía?

I made a small reverence to the very white dove with a tender smile

—Fiat mihi secundum caritatis tuam…

I felt a tender warmth in the heart, as I have felt many times during these years… but this one was especially tender. The dove glowed, and my charity alliance too…

-This is the way of building a society of new life, a culture of new life, Alma Mía, Princess of Heaven: letting the Spirit act in you, letting Jesus Charity’s heart beat in you… so you let His gifts cultivate more and more new life… and you know… when you life by Love, you are letting the Spirit act… everyone who let himself or herself be moved by Love acts in the Spirit’s power, even if they don’t know the Holy Spirit… the Holy Spirit keeps roaming the earth as a New Pentecost, generating more and more new life with this alliance of charity, generating more and more culture of new life, culture of love, culture of new fraternization with His gifts… generating more and more new civilization of Love as you don’t keep His Love to yourself but keep giving it more and more and more… because as much Love you give, as much Love you will grow in you, and more and more Love will grow where you are, creating then more and more culture of new life where everyone, no matter how small, can keep growing and become the best person you can be… becoming together the living gift of the Spirit you are called to be… as you let the Spirit roam free…

He looked at the dove in my hands.

Let it roam free, Star of Heaven. Let it act free as God Love wishes…

I let the dove fly free again, elevating my hands and letting the dove fly again… and as I did that I felt again a very tender warmth in my heart, and it was so tender it burned, in a good way, as my alliance of charity have been fired before, and was firing right now…

Mikhael smiled once again…

—Do you know what is that, Victoria?

I had no word to say, I was simply burning in Love. In Spanish: un Amor que abrasa y abraza. That is the way to describe it: a Love that abraza (charity alliance) and abrasa (burning warmth).

—That is the stigma of the Heart. When you share heart with Jesus as His mother you share His stigma of the Heart too… your hungry of Love will only ease as you Love as He loves… and you can ask that to the Blessed Holy Family of the New Albor… they both know about that estigma del corazón whose burning really moves you to Love as He loves, to incarnate His living Eucharist as you give yourself more and more deeply as He gives himself to the whole humanity…

My heart burned intensely and my alliance of charity too…

Mikhael kept smiling tendenrly…

—And you know how you ease the burn…

I joked a little bit

—I guess this doesn work like the heartburn, that eases with Peptobismol…

We both laughed and cried of joy at the same time…

—No, this doesn’t work this way. This heartburn eases as you see in your brothers and sisters the eyes of Jesus, and help them grow as Jesus would grow and calls humanity to grow: in more and more communion, as the light you are all called to be, as the living gift you are called to be… as transconsecrated hearts…

The dove flew above us and my heart burned againg along my alliance… I simply wanted to hug Jesus, but he wasn’t there as person…

—You can hug me…— Mikhael said

I did, and I simply radiated light along Him…

—You can always hug me, I will always be here…

My heart and my alliance felt the tender warmth again…

We keep hugging…

—So, how we are going to radiate this light to your brothers and sisters, so they can see God’s Love and grow as you are all called to grow: in more and more communion?

—You know, I am simply enjoying the moment… I have no words…

—I will help you. Look at the beach. What do you see there, Victoria?

I saw light in the sand, a beautiful and blinding light that didn’t let me see what was under the light.

—This light, Victoria, is the victory over darkness, over hate, over all cults to death that doesn’t let a culture of new life grow, that doesn’t let every human being, every brother and sister, to be, do, act, glow and bloom as the light you are all called to be. The light ot Love is the light that overcomes all. The light of Love is the light that overcomes. The light of Love is the light that raise you all up as the culture of new life you are called to be, transforming everything into radiation of new that grows in communion. This is the fire of the Spirit that unites you all as the human family you are meant to be, as the people-family of the new albor you are meant to be as you give light to Jesus Charity with the action of the Holy Spirit in you, giving also light to the Word, giving light also to a new era of new fraternization, a new era in which you realize that you are all brothers and sisters called to grow together in communion, being together the simphony of light you are called to be as you walk together as the family of Love you are called to be in the Spirit.

[The mistery in His words was more deep than what I am able to express].

Mikhael gave me a wood domestic chalice and an art palete paten. It was full of the rainbow colors, and also silver, gold and metallic orange.

—You will need this, Victoria…

The light began to fade and it showed what was underneath…

There were many white lanterns to throw to the sky. Like these ones’s style.

—How many are there? I asked Mikhael.

He smiled.

—Technically, there should be a lamp per each human being in this earth that chooses to be “us”, to be part of the unity that makes us all brothers and sisters of the same human family of Love… but because we can’t paint that amount of lamps… we are only going to paint 21, as a sign.

—Why 21 lamps?

Mikhael smiled widely

—The 21 works of mercy, including the social works of mercy. As you choose to be compassive and mercyful, you radiate such a light that radiates everywere new life that grows in more and more communion… and that is how humanity grows as the family of brothers and sisters you are called to be in the unity of the Spirit. You need to splash/transconsecrate those 21 lamps with vivid colors and the unity in the Spirit colors (gold, silver, metallic orange)… so here you have the chalice and the art palete paten…

The white dove flattered again around and above us…

—and there you have the Holy Spirit action, because no victory over cult of death is impossible to God. No victory over hate is impossible to God. No converssion is impossible to God if you choose to let the Spirit act in you, so you can become the light you are called to be together, growing together in more and more communion, in more and more culture of new life that cultivates more and more life that grows in communion, incarnating Jesus Charity’s vision as you see His eyes in the brothers and sisters you are called to help to grow in communion, letting new life bloom more and more…

I began to transconsectrate the lamps with more and more “new wine”… using each color wixed with the blessings in the chalice…

—as you let you raise up as you are meant to raise up from sin, from death, from darkness, from misery, from slavery, from colonization and any kind of defraternization and dehumanization, from any kinf of hate and division… to glorify God with your light, with your new life that grows in more and more communion, becoming together in unity the best persons you can be, the new light you are called to be, the radiation of His new albor of salvation you are called to be…

I transconsectrated the 21 lamps and we raised them up together as the dove flattered above us and fired up the candles in the lamps. I have never seen a real lamp of these, but the candles we use in the dream where tie die swirled tea light candles (the very small candles that are usually white, you use in incense/essential oil warmers).

Mikhael winked at me when I saw the lamps:

-they are fired by the Holy Spirit, and they are swirled because they fly in direction communion, as you walk in direction communion as we are raised up as people-family of the new albor, as Kingdom of New Albor…

As you can see in Amazon, nobody makes tea light candles in white color with swirls of other mixed colors. That doesn’t exist.

While the lamps began to ascend, Mikhael explained me that what I need to add today in the Amazon wishlist for my students is white lamp paper lanters (now I know they are known as chinese paper lanterns) and the candles to raise the lamps in the very same they are meant to be raised by the Spirit: as we become together the light we are meant to be letting the Spirit act in us. Well, I will need another kind of candles (if those are the candles that the chinese lamps use, I will need a search in Google). I need to teach my students to let themselves to be raised as they let the Spirit act in them freely, embracing the everlasting creative freedom of the Spirit that doesn’t stop to act in this new Pentecost.

I had no probs finding the lamps, but as I just said, there are no swirled tea light candles. I will need to simply choose mixed colors… or kits to make tealight candles homemade. We will see.

As we discussed this, suddenly, there were a TON more of lights raised in the sky.

I looked amazed: From where all these new lights came from?

Mikhael smiled at the Dove: God Love did it. As one light shines, other shine, and other shine, and other shine… and suddenly you got a whole Kindgom of New Albor…

[The new albor in the horizon shone in very vivid orange and yellow, with pink sparks… but as the lamos got higher, into the blue zone of the horizon, they shone very brightly, as the family of stars and the moon-living Eucharist in the sky…]

So… do you want to see the lanterns better in the fishing boat?

I smiled: of course, lets go to an adventure, as Jesus Charity taught us…

We went to the boat to see the beatiful lights… any similarity with the movie Tangled is a simple coincidence 😂 It was kinda that way, without the kissing scene and with a net of incarnated charity apostolate in the boat.

Mikhael smiled: lets dance a new song, beautiful Victory of Heavens… Victory of New Albor…

And there, in he boat, surrounded by lights, with the Dove flying around, we danced His new song, Josh Groban style

When We are down and, oh my soul, so weary

When troubles come and our heart burdened be

Then, we are still and wait here in the silence

Until You come and sit awhile with us

You raise us up, so we can stand on mountains

You raise us up, to walk on stormy seas

We are strong, when we are on your shoulders

You raise us up to more than we can be.

You raise us up, so we can stand on mountains

You raise us up, to walk on stormy seas

We are strong, when we are on your shoulders

You raise us up to more than we can be.

You raise us up, so we can stand on mountains

You raise us up, to walk on stormy seas

We are strong, when we are on your shoulders

You raise us up to more than we can be.

You raise us up, so we can stand on mountains

You raise us up, to walk on stormy seas

We are strong, when we are on your shoulders

You raise us up to more than we can be.

You raise us up to more than we can be.

[If you want to hear the original song, sang by its original author, Josh Groban, you can hear it here:]

Everything was, together along the action of the Spirit a beautiful simphony of light.

—My beloved Victoria of the New Albor, let yourself be raised as you are meant to be raised— Mikhael whispered as we keep dancing hugging…

—Fiat mihi caritatis tuam… we are family, we are Church, we are mission, we are light… we are brothers, we are humanity, we are mission, we are light…— I whispered back

—Be the light you are meant to be and you will fire the world with God’s Love. Be the saint you are meant to be and you will fire the world with God’s light that shines upon us right now…

The boat keep navigating among lights, sent to more and more deeper waters, sent to more and more deep mistery as we created more and more home, Church and humanity that created more and more Heaven, more and more living Eucharist, more and more living mercy, more and more living mandatum novum…

Mikhael pronounced these words and hugged me very tenderly, but the blessing didn’t came from him, but from the new albor in the horizon, that shone upon us blindly, in very vivid yellow and orange as my new albor eyes glowed beautifully and also very vividly and the beacon-cross of the rosary also glowed very vividl…

The LORD bless you and keep you!

The LORD let his face shine upon you, and be gracious to you!

The LORD look upon you kindly and give you peace!”

And so I woke up… Remember: the new albor means salvation, it is not only a sunrise, it is the new albor of His salvation, of His new life that grows in communion…

It was a very tender, luminous dream. 🙂

Yesterday I had no time to read I Never Knew I Had a Choice because I went to hang out with other teachers, so I will do it today. I think we are in chapter 14, that is about personal growth.

There is not a better “personal grower” than the Holy Spirit, as you may have seen in the dream. We are in His time, and He is who, though the sacraments, help us to keep growing more, more and more, becoming the living sacraments of Love we are called to be, plasmating the whole personal formation as the living icon of God-Love-with-us we are called to be. As a matter of fact, “help to grow” in the integractive personal formation model is the personal formation process that belongs to the Holy Spirit.

I searched Google about how paper lanterns work. They do work with candles, but they can also work with paraffin. Imagine a sky like that, but a sunrise, a new albor sunrise. 🙂

After all this being said, lets go now to chapter 14 of the book I Never Knew I Had a Choice. Let’s keep choosing to be a light, like a new albor lantern in the sky. ☺️ Here are the photos of the pages I commented/marked.

So, as you can see, I just read chapter 14, the last chapter of the book: Pathways to Personal Growth. It was surprisingly short, compared with other chapters. The author says it means to be a “summarizing chapter” but it is not so summarizing at all for me: it deals with topics not dealt before, like the beautifully written topic of dreams.

The author does propose several pathways for personal growth. My favorite? Of course, journaling writing. As a matter of fact (or I should say “as a matter of dream” 😊?) Mikhael told me, among those casual comments I don’t always write: “don’t ever stop writing”. That was my childhood dream: become a writer. I never ever imagined personal growth writing (or personal growth journaling) could be a literary genre by itself, as it is with me. I am awesome with personal growth journaling, I am a personal growth author. 😊 I loved the phrase “Growth have no small steps”. I can paraphrase that quote: “Growth has no small heart beats”. Like Dr. Seuss says: A person is a person, no matter how small.

I expected in this chapter a definition of personal growth. I didn’t found it. However, the chapter’s description of dreams as a pathway of growth is accurate… and outstanding in my circumstances. I am who I am thanks to the guardian angel, the Jesus Charity and the Holy Family of the New Albor I have met in dreams, awake and asleep. I am who I am thanks to how I have met myself through their creating-home sparkled eyes. My life wouldn’t be the same without them, quite literally. I wouldn’t be alive without them. Its like Rose, in the extended Carpathia scene, when she is told that nobody knew about Jack, that there were no records about him… and Rose says: “Now you know that there was a Jack Dawson, and that he saved me, in every way a person can be saved”. This is me, but sharing the Jesus Charity I have met in dreams: Now you know there is a Christ Love, and that He saved me, in every way a person can be saved…

You can see the Carpathia Extended Scene Here:

What I love most about this scene is how Rose’s identity changes after Jack giving his life to save her. The same happens to me: these dreams, how Jesus Charity has saved me, has changed my identity. Mi new name is Victoria of New Albor, Victoria Magdaluz Veragoeiz, as Mikael called me last night. You simply can’t remain the same after certain things happen, and yes, Jesus Charity, His Love, has changed my life, my identity, who I am, how I live, now and forever. I will never stop walking as He walked (that is the tittle of the theology of light’s text). You simply can’t avoid to grow and to change after you met such a beautiful Love. Its like a butterfly: you find your wings to fly as high as you never believed possible to reach.

“Our dreams can provide us with a path toward greater understanding of ourselves and our relationship with others… Dreams are not mysterious, they are avenues to self-understanding… the dream is the most spontaneous expression of the existence of the human being… dreams are full of symbols… dreams are a rich source of meaning… to better design a personal vision for your future, we encourage you to dream when you are awake as well when you are asleep… if you reflect thoughtfully on the messages in your dreams, a range of choices will unfold for you… dare to dream, and then have the courage to follow your passions.” All these are quotes of this chapter I feel deeply identified with.

Dare to dream. As Laura Pausini sings: dare to dream until the very last.

[You can see that song here, is a duet with Andrea Bocelli]

That is my life. I keep choosing to dare to dream, to dare to love, until the very last. I know I can be killed, by toxic gassing or any other method my progenitors fabricate, at any moment, like the Ulma family was martyrized by the Nazis (I have dared to dream today and asked their intercession for having a biological child, with all the impossible things that implies for someone of my age and circumstances). I still choose to dare to dream with the society Jesus Charity call us to become: a people-family of the new albor in which everyone walks as the brother and sister we are all called to be, as the light we are all called to be, a beautiful and unique light in the sky, a lantern that radiates a light that no other lantern will ever be able to radiate.

We can say it in other terms, as Jesus Charity has done: dare to help to dream… dare to dream together with a world were everyone, from the smallest, can become the light we are all called to be, the best person we can be, the best humanity we can be, walking together as the family of light we are called to be, as the humanity of Love we are called to be, creating a progress in which everyone can have opportunities of growth that lead to plenitude, to communion, to joy, and for those who are Christian, to holiness.

So… lets keep daring to dream, but dreaming together, like the change in the lyrics of “You raise us up” implies. Let God Love raise us up with His dream: becoming together the people-family of new albor we are called to be, the state of new albor we are called to be, the nation of new albor we are called to be… the kingdom of new albor we are called to be.

Let’s dare to dream, together with Jesus Charity, until forever: You raise us up…

Jesus Charity, we adore you with our whole growth.