The text I am sharing in this blog post is the last “contemplative text” that remains “timed” to be shared in a forced communication context. Yes, to control all the communications forms of a human is already a “cognitive beheading”… but there is another kind of “beheading” going on:

Not allowing to incarnate His Word is also separating His Head (Act In Persona Christi) of His body (Being In Persona Ecclesiae). A Church that can’t live His sacramental memory as called to… is being beheaded.

Both “beheadings” are happening at the same time. 

Saint Paul’s words of Jesus being “the Head” and the Church being “the body” had always been understood “in a hierarchical-gender sense”: men are meant to be “in the top.” Well… nobody has understood those words in a non-hierarchical way: both head and body are needed. The “Head” is the “sacramental memory”  to be formed as a supernatural act… and Jesus is the “memory” that must be “done”. The “Body” is the “incarnated personhood” that is to be formed as a natural being… that is not hierarchical at all, both are needed to be living Eucharist, to be Church being the living body she has been created to be, and to Jesus being the living Person He has come into this world to be… until the end of history. The “history of salvation” keeps happening as He keeps being “incarnated” as a “living body” in the personal ecclesial formation of all those who “plasmate” their whole personal formation “according to His Word” as “incarnated”: “This is my heart, let it be done in me according to Your Word…”

There is a gesture I had done a lot in mass, while praying the “Our Father” or while receiving the Eucharist: the hands being crossed over the heart. 

Well, now I know, that “hand-cross gesture” is what the Virgin Mary did while Jesus consecrated the Eucharist, with very deep “recogimiento” (sorry, I don’t know a translation for that word in English) while embracing the deep mistery that “overpowered” her again exactly as it happened in His incarnation. Yes, she already told the words “let it be done unto me according to Your Word” in the incarnation, not yet knowing what that would mean later… what changed between the two times the same thing was said was the “this is my heart” part. The second time she doesn’t said “this is the slave of the Lord…” No, this time she says “this is my heart, let it be done according to Your Word”. Nobody understands that “missing part” of the mass yet. Yes, I have done that gesture for years, not understanding fully why.

Well, if you understand that you can’t act only “in persona Christi”, that you also NEED to act “in persona Ecclesie” when you act “in persona Christi” because what doesn’t happen naturally first won’t happen supernaturally either (grace “plenifies” nature, doesn’t “substitute” it), and being a “living Church” is the “natural way” (the “personal way”) that Jesus chose to act in the supernatural way (the “sacramental way”)… you will realize: besides Christ’s words at the consecration, you NEED “the living Church” words also (Mary was the first living Church), and that is transconsecration of the heart. So… Jesus is the Head, the living Church is His living body… and both are needed to become living Eucharist: the consecration to act in persona Christi (His “sacramental memory” is the Head) and the transconsecration to be in persona Ecclesiae (His “personal incarnation”‘as the Body). 

So, Mary’s words are the ones meant to be used as “transconsecration sacramental ceremoniale”. SHE WAS THE FIRST LIVING CHURCH, so they both (Jesus and Mary) became, in different senses, Living Eucharist when the Last Supper happened. She was the “living body” that made the Living Eucharist possible to be incarnated (and this applies in her literally, even in the natural sense, she was the one who allowed Him to be come a living incarnated person and Person, since the very beginning, in the incarnation). Jesus was the memory that made the Living Eucharist possible to be incarnated (literally, in the supernatural sense, since the very beginning, as living incarnated sacrament, since the Last Supper): “This is my Body… This is my Blood… do this in memory of Me…”

Mary was the first one who adored HIM becoming together a LIVING INCARNATED EUCHARIST, adoring Him in SPIRIT AND TRUTH, and nobody noticed… because it is not meant to be an “espectacle”… its is meant to be… revealed.

What happened… nobody saw it. Nobody was able to, and if she would have told it, nobody would have understood… and she would have been totally “known by force”… Really, you don’t know how it happens until you are revealed it happened, and revelation doesn’t happen in a day, is progressive…

You need a lot of progress to be able to understand this: the Mass will be incomplete without a woman’s words, because the Church has always been a SHE. Even priests —I mean, ordained priests—  need to be “In Persona Ecclesiae” too, they can’t only act “In Persona Christi” if they are meant to become a living Eucharist…. in the same way all Christians, in a “common sense way”, need to act “In Persona Christi” and also BE “In Persona Ecclesia”. Wherever they are, they ARE the living Church, and they must become aware of that to then learn how to act “In Persona Christi” according to God’s will to fulfill both their sacramental vocation and growing-together-in-communion vocation.

We don’t know what is more rare right now: an ordained priest being concious of both acting “In Persona Christi” and being “In Persona Ecclesie” (no, no ones does it, they even don’t have formators to learn that) or a lay being concious of their call of act “In Persona Chisti” and also BEING “In Persona Ecclesiae” (lay… don’t have formation at all as domestic churches) wherever they are in the middle of the world. Being “In Persona Ecclesiae” happens first, it begins as gifted grace at baptism… but the eclessial personal formation keeps plenifying and growing on as we act more and more “In Persona Christi”, embracing more and more graceful giftedness, and at the same time becoming a more and more graceful giftedness, until becoming along Him the Living Eucharist that Christ and the Church are called to be together as “una sola cosa” (entity).

In the same way Jesus is “sacramentally ordered” (He can’t ACT in any way that is not “sacramentally”), the living Church is “personally ordered” (She can’t BE in any way that is not “personal” according to His memory; she can’t “incarnate personally” in any way thay is not in order to live His Charity; she can’t form as person in any way that is not “according to His Word”). 

In my excepcional case, this is SO true that memory (now I mean: my neurobiological memory) only functions best when I am praying or in dialogue with my family of Heaven. This has “natural causes” to be happening now, as anyone will understand while reading this text: as you keep loosing all “personal meaninfulness” and all your “communication forms” keep being controlled by force and you keep being “known by force”, loosing every “personhood sense”… well, Jesus literally becomes the only “possible memory” [even in the neurobiological sense, because your only “human communication” possible is with Heaven] you had ever had of who you truly are and who you are truly called to be.

Said in a very few words: what you will read in this text is the whole process of how all “words” around me became “noises”, until He became my only “living memory” of who I am and who I am called to be. Quite literally. My own voice became “lost in noises”. I am not able to hear me: I am able to hear my family of Heaven and then hear me in them. That didn’t happened before, not in that very literal sense, that applies even in the “memory function” way. Right now, the only “noises” I hear as “voice” are theirs; all other “voices” are “noises.”

Yes, I could say so much more, exactly as it happened with Mary… but this has never meant to be happening in a “forced communication” context, with more and more torture being enforced, with a whole Truman Show happening, with more and more social control-torture tactics being enforced as if the human creature could ne “owner” of its own being, that has been been freely given by our Creator… 

This was not meant to be a “beheading” either, in any sense, as it had being since a very long time.

So I won’t say a single forced-communication contemplative word after this text. All you will “hear” after this text, in the videos or the few tweets I do share by force (no matter how I communicate, it will be controlled by others… besides also being controlled biologically with toxic gassing and also being controlled socially with social control-torture tactics)… will be about what happens around me. 

As I describe several times at the end of this text, I am simply going from one kind of “exile” to other kind of “exile.” In the real sense, I had already been exiled for a long time ago, it is only a matter of becoming “oficially recognized,” something that is way beyong my “choice,” especially when it is a whole Goverment who is enforcing a whole parallel social reality. The worst has not come from domestic terrorists being allowed to act: the worst had come from a Goverment acting exactly as domestic terrorists do.

I had already been “gone” for a long time, for all the social and biological functional purposes. I had been forced to function as a “war field” and a “war ammunition” I had never been created to be nor called to become, besides also being forced to remain victim of all kinds of tortures in the same cruel and totally unethical way Jews were experimented by Mengele… but in the “mind” sense… 

I am quoting Saint Paul’s words now: “But we have the mind of Christ […] Be renewed in the spirit of your minds, and clothe yourselves with the new self, created according to the likeness of God in true righteousness and holiness.”

That is being “reborn”: being “re-new.” I am a “re-new” creature in Him, for Him and with Him.

So… if my words and nature are not allowed to be according to His Word and to be revealed as He created human nature to be, let them remain silent and “hidden” by my family Heaven, as you can see in the digital “drawing” that illustrates this blog post.

Let us go “Into the West” and remain adoring Him with our whole growth. That is not a mere “drawing”: its “drawing more to Christ” together as a family of Heaven. You may “see” I am alone (I mean, in the physical sense). I am not. I had ever been “drawn to Him”, and that won’t change: His new albor will always remain “inside” of me… no matter how I am being tortured even unto…

Well, JK Rowling created an amazing word for describing this: crucio!

Quoting Saint Paul again [he died beheaded]: If we live, we live for the Lord. If we die, we die for the Lord. Whether we live or die, we belong to the Lord.

I have already said what He wanted me to say and “formed me” to incarnate.

What you do with what He says, that’s your part of the history, not mine.

I already have chosen to “do as He says,” as you could read in the Christmas Eve or Christmas Day chronicle.

Whatever happens, I belong to Him, and that won’t change: this charity alliance stands as bright as the New Albor He has chosen to radiate this way… He is One that is increasing, in the same way the light of a sunrise keeps increasing and increasing, ever more…  

Illum oportet crescere… Crescere… Crescere… Crescere…

This is my heart: let it be to me done according to His Word…

Editorial Note: This text probably has a ton of misspellings because I wasn´t allowed to use a spell checker properly. I chose not to waste energy “fighting” what is out of my control (the US government is the one who is surveilling and using the spell checker for social control-torture tactics), so I barely used the spell checker and focused on content.