-For every forced labor in which I was forced to endure to see children being tortured…
-For every forced labor in which I was forced to endure abuses of power and human trafficking…
-For every chemical burn I had been forced to endure, or that my dogs had been forced to endure…
-For every forced diarrea and forced flatulence I was forced to endure…
-For every time I had been forced to bleed internally, either through the eyes or nose…
-For every time I had been forced to endure sleep deprival…
-For every time I had been forced to endure other personal belonging being stolen or broken…
-For every time I had been forced to vomit…
-For every time I had been forced to collapse…
-For every time my hair was ripped off with toxic gassing…
-For every time I had been enforced social narrative control performances, or that I had bern forced to fit the social narrative performances of those who commit their power abuses against me…
-For every time I had been enforced manipulated content in social media, and for everytime truth had been denied over and over again with such manipulated content, especially when projecting a whole social parallel reality coordinated and ordhestrated to control my social reality perception…
-For everytime I had been enforced into a whole orchestrated Truman Show via civil slavery/social slavery, with all aspects of my social personal formation being expoited for social war purposes: from a “personal shopping” in a shopping digital media, to all the content enforced via digital social media, to that email that the Department of Health sent me in a holiday, jus to use that “forced social communication” as ANOTHER social wat shooting enforced through my “social frame”… For everytime ANY aspect of my personal formation that is meant to be personal had been forced to be exploited as “military formation”, imploding my personal formation as social war ammunition as I had been forced over and over again to only be able to function according to what is convenient to military purposes… so, all that is meant to be inherently personal in me becomes inherently a military ops (a psy ops).
-For every time I had been forced to endure low blood oxygen levels SO unhman they were worthy of an OVNI…
-For every time I had been force to endure dizzines, vertigo and headache, sometimes done SO fast I wouldn’t be even allowed to walk out the house of tortures to breath air…
-For everytime I had been forced to endure ear pain or that I had been caused to not being able to process auditively or to hear…
-For everytime I had been forced to endure pain cramps, or swollen feet…
-For everytime I had been forced to endure burning acid reflux…
-For everytime I had been forced to endure bradicardia or tachycardia…
-For every time you had forced to keep blurping like Shrek, sometimes even those around me boasting they knew they were causing the blurping…
-For every time I had been restrained of being able to walk on my own
-For every single time I was forced to endure sudden weak nails or spots in the nails…
-For every time I had been forced to endure eye burning, or eye ball bleeding…
-For every time I had been forced to endure skin itching, or skin burning…
-For every time I had been forced to endure muscle contractions…
-For every time I had been forced to endure excruciating pain, and go along with it without being given pain meds…
-For every time I had been forced to endure to accompain a pet murdered or tortured…
-For every time I I had been forced to endure famine, while everybody saw and knew it…
-For every time I had been forced to endure low back pain or hip pain…
-For every time I had been forced to see blackness upon my own body: in my eyes, in my elbows, in my feet…
-For every time I had been forced calcifications irregularities either in my teeth or feet…
-For every time I had been forced to endure torture in ALL medical offices…
-For every time I had been forced to endure hand pain or hand tremors, or involuntary movements anywhere in my body…
-For every time I had been forced to endure knee pain or vascular pain…
-For every time I had been forced to endure not having personal space at all and not been able to bathe, or beeathe, or sleep, or functioning biologically at all by my own, totally civilly slaved to hair to toes…
-For every time I had been forced to endure tingling, or parts of my body that were asleep or lack of sensation, or paralized…
-For everytime I was forced to endure my skin, especially my hands, turning blue, or purple, or pink…
-For everytime I had been forced to endure loss or weight, or gain of weight…
-For everytime I had been forced to endure how my neck was turned swollen, or to endure the loss of my voice…
-For every time I had been forced to endure being infected deliberately with a fungus or a bacteria…
-For everytime I had been forced to endure a skin allergy or a skin rash…
-For every time I had been forced to endure a ball in my body, either in my breasts or in my genital area…
-For every time I had forced to endure being caused pain or burning in my genital area… (yes, even at the work of tortures they caused that with toxic gassing, imagine being forced to endure that kind of pain in your “work”)…
-For every time I had been forced to endure being poisoned or drugged with whatever I ingested, besides the already systematic toxic gas poisoning that had always been ongoing…
-For every time I had been forced to endure stomach pain, or intestinal pain…
-For every time I had been forced to endure hot flashes or burning temperature, at my feet, at my ears, or at my whole body…
-For every time I had been forced to endure too being cold…
-For every time I had been forced to endure to be sedated…
-For every time I had been forced to endure denigrating treatment at stores, over and over again…
-For every time I had been forced to sneeze or to throw water through my nose, to the point of chemically burning my nose nostrils…
-For every time I had been forced to endure teeth ache…
-For every time I had been forced to endure my throath becoming “like a hard flu”, but it was always caused by toxic gassing too, since the very beginning…
-For every time I had been told “its allergy to shrimps”, when it was very well known I was being forced to endure another toxically-caused reaction…
-For every varicose vein I had been forced to endure, and the whole years I had been forced to endure without able to bath or shave without being exposed to burning feeling in the skin…
-For every noise I had been forced to hear calculatedy, deliberatedly, gaslightingly…
-For every time I had to break a door lock because I had forced me to a locked life since the beginning of my existence…
-For every time I was galight to believe that what was being poisoned was the food, making me go from size 18 to size 0 due me believing the food was being poisoned, so I barely eat anything that was not packed individually to avoid being poisoned… and at the same time, I was only given 40 dollars per week for food, so I reached the point of collapsing of hunger…
-For every time I had being forced to endure excruciating pain “due hunger”, when it was toxically caused all time along…
-For everytime I had been forced to endure excruciating pain and diarrea “due menstruation”, when it was toxically caused all time along…
-For every time I had been forced to endure “psoriasis flares”, when it had been caused toxically all time along…
-For every time puppies were killed, one after another, when I was asking for a dog as child… Some killed with viruses, others by “ants”, and now its clear; they were being deliberately killed and deliberately infected, one after another, me forced to accompaining them to die and see their eyes becoming completely black, one after another…
-For every the kittens dissapeared suddenly, and I was forced to endure knowing they were beig killed and thrown away, even bragging of “throwing away pregnant cats”, instead of sterilizing the cats…
-For every pet that had bern killed or tortured while me only being able to embrace them in my arms to confort them, sometimes while they were agonizing…
-For every time I had been forced to hear that no “teen pregnancy would be tolerated”, at the same time I was being induced totally risky teen sexual behaviour due lack of supervision and totally allowed and even induced sexual risky behaviours…
-For every time I had been forced to endure an hormonal imbalance, especially of testoterone, causing me sexual compulsions and masturbation compulsions, or gender attraction confusions…
-For every time I had forced me to endure depresion and suicidal ideation due them being induced toxically, besides all the “extra” psychosocial abuse besides that…
-For everyrime I had been forced to endure a change of TSH totally absolutely to happen by its own; it had been caused toxically all time along, concealed with a “medical history of hashimoto”…
-For every time I had been forced to endure known cancerigen toxic gasses, with the deliberate intention of causing me brain cancer or cover the neurocogniive damage as “MLS-Alzheimer” kind of diagnosis…
-For every time I had been forced to endure a totally false, fabricated diagnosis…
-For every time I was forced to endure one toxic positivism after other…
-Fore every time I was forced to endure civil slavery, social monopoly, every discusting rape of human dignity that you were able to enforce…
-For every time I was forced to endure one truth denialism after other, one social gaslighting after other, one dignity rape after another, one unbeing enforcement after another, one enforcement unto an absolute apersonal body state after another…
-For every time I had been forced to endure my favorite clothes being stolen (like the creating home goeiz tshirt), teared (like the current only jacket I can use) or spotted with whatever sustance you preffer to use to get the cloth piece either permanently marked or needed to be washed)…
-For every time I had been forced to endure my room or my zones being “organized” or cleaned” when the real purpose was enforcing social gaslighting and stealing stuff…
-For every time I had been forced to toletae plagues like ticks and coockaraches that were being deliberately caused, but it was made in a way it seemed it was “due me not cleaning” or due me “not washing the dogs”…
-For every time one of my books had been stolen, until leaving me even without a Bible…
-For every time one of my diaries or journal notebooks or creative notebooks had been read by force and taken away…
-For every time a cellphone or any kind of device was surveiled illegally, exactly as it is happening as I am writting this… including those who were caused to malfunction and die, me forced to keep changing of cellphones and loosing memories over and over again…
-For every time I had been forced to remain crying due to the intense toxic gassing that is being used to poison the air of the room I am forced to remain in…
-For every time I had been socially isolated over and over again, even daring to project unto me and other that I am the one choosing to isolate…
-For every time I had been denied my own cognitive skills, being able to paint, to create, to have the attention require for a task or creative project…
-For every time, while I was forced to endure extreme suffering, terrorists psychoviolence and tremendous tortures… a President had simply chosen to deny the truth of my eyes being burned alive, or me collapsing unconscious on my own vomit, or me being asphixiated over and over again deliberatedly, or whatever other brutal torture or dignity rape I had been enforced while each President, one after another since Obama to the present, simply chooses to keep enforcing a whole parallel social reality and keep enforcing MORE SOCIAL GASLIGHTING AND MORE TRUTH DENIALIMS, one personhood bloodshed after other, one social shooting after another, commited BY THE OWN GOVERMENT —yes: the Goverment of the USA acts as profesional executioners and social snipers that target you and shoot you to civil death— instead of acting according to true rule of law and let truth stand and let personhood be, not slaving anyone as civil shooting targets…
-For every time a Pope had simply chosen to use even sacramental life as tool to enforce even more truth denialism, instead of witnessing the truth that all true Christians are called to witness… talking about ANYTHING but the truth, consenting one torture after another and even commiting one social gaslighting after another, to the extent of me being totally unable to remain institutionally Catholic anymore…
-For everytime I had been socially gaslighted by ALL the noises that are fabricated as social bombings around the whole neighborhood, every single day (fake ad speakers, loud regueton, the neighbor’s fake coughs…), keeping me slaved with more and more psychosocial imprisonment tactics instead of letting me life free in a truth-based society, without being enforced psychosocial chains nor being chained with forced communication tactics…
-For every time I had been left alone when I was supposed to be cared, loved and being able to embrace a live and a home of my own as a free woman…
-For every gaslighting that has been made with EVERY public service I am supossed to receive as an equal citizen, but because I am a civil slave, I had never been equal at all nor given equal “services” at all: my cellphone, my every shooping I do (online or in a physical store), every medical “service” I required to have… everything, absolutely EVERYTHY service is given for enforce social gaslighting and EVERY transaction, absolutely EVERYONE, is only allowed according to what is more convenient to others: I am always the mean to other purposes, I am property to be disposses according to what is more convenient to other’s purposes, I am never simply a person, and end by herself…
-For every time I had been emotionally sabotaged to believe someone was speaking truthfully or communicating with sincerity or treating in a truth-based way… to then simply find out it was more social gaslighting and more love bombing, that everything was socially scripted to get advantage of my natural disposition to assume the best in everyone, as God does… to then, when I had trust, break it as my own personhood became teared again and enforce ANOTHER psychosocial imprisonment or ANOTHER psycosocial torture-control tactic upon me, raping my dignity again…
-For every time news had told headlines of wars fought in Ukraine or in whichever other place, while at the same time the truth of my suffering and how I had been forced by the Goverment of the United States to remain a civil slave and a social war field has been totally denied for more than a decade… one newspaper after another had erased me in every way possible… including straightfoward historical denialism of a magnitude not seen since Holocaust denialism… but everyone consider it normal, even worthy… everyone totally complicit with commiting and covering up crimes against personhood…
-For every time content in shopping media, social media or news media had been manipulated explicitly to socially gaslight and deny my personal formation any right or even possibility to BE…
-For every time a “service” of the own Goverment, either the Goverment of Puerto Rico or the Federal Goverment, was denied or given only to use such “service” to enforce even MORE civil death and civil slavery unto me…
-For every time truth could had been said, but even more social gaslihting was enforced, and even more psychosocial tortures were enforced, and even worse crimes against personhood were commited, and even more civil death was enshovern… without no possibility of free live, not in Earth, nor in Heaven…
-For all the time I had been forced to endure a non human existance, simply allowed to keep existing to be forced to remain slaved, to remain tortured, to my personhood remain being butchered by both sides of this social terrorist war…
-For every time I was made believe I was having a “civil life”, when as a matter of truth, I had been forced to remain a social war field and a civil slave MY WHOLE EXISTANCE, since my very social conception: I had NEVER been allowed to be free to be me nor to free to be an equal civilian… especially at every job: I was exclusively hired to be tortured and slaved, one after another… nine times. The mere normalization of civil slavery commited BY A GOVERMENT was not enough: it was also normalized TO ALLOW COVERING UP CIVIL SLAVERY and PSYCHOSOCIAL IMPRISONMENT with a whole Truman Show PAID AND BOASTED TO BE ALLOWED —ONE POWER ABUSE AFTER ANOTHER— BY THE FEDERAL GOVERMENT.
-For everything I had been only allowed to hope and have aspirations or goals, to simply be robbed of them, one personhood bloodshed after another… but especially being robbed, one personhood social assault after another, of the hope of finding a society where I could be who I am… simply be… no fabricated social scripting, no fabricated content… but wherever I search, from the second time I so the same social search, the social content or the social environment WILL be manipulated for social gaslighting purposes. Even if you are only daydreaming to be in Ireland, somewhere out of public reach, somewhere of social gasligting reach… even in those searches, eventually, social gaslighting will be enforced… there is NOT A SINGLE SOCIAL PATHWAY —digital, civil or domestic— to allow you simply to BE. Everyone knows the extreme suffering —even worse than being stolen oxygen— stealing your be causes. It is done anyways. Over and over again. Cold bloodelly.
-For every time I believed others would not want you to cause you suffering on purpose… to the eventually discovered: not only it is known I am being causing suffering on purposed: I will deliberalety be caused suffering on purpose and I will even seen some boasting how the magnitude of cruelty and powe abuse keeps increasing…
-For everytime I have remained praying in silence, unmoving in the bed, as if I were sleeping, and there is absolute silence around me… until exactly when I seem to “wake up”, and then door noises and loud noises are done exactly as I wake up… Doors can be very strategically opened and closed in a completely silent way when it is convenient to do so (example: when my progenitors get out of their room first time of the morning, they do it completely silently)… to then use them loudly —even throwing them when there is narcissistic rage—, exactly after I wake up, or while I am writing in my cellphone something that enrages them… EVERYTHING I DO, THINK and even SEEM TO DO had been surveiled my whole life by both my progenitors and also by the Goverment who allowed them to commit their abuses without arresting them.
-For every time I had been robbed of the possibility of my own love story with God Love and Jesus Charity, forcinf me to fit a romantic narrative with a man that I don’t want to remainn in my life anymore, but in the same way I am forced to keep the “connection” with my progenitors, all my connections are also forced and controlled, absolutely ALL of them, including affective and romantic… I can’t be considered to simply have my own loveful story with Jesus Charity, raising Him up as I am called to… No, I must always be projected as dependent upon someone affectively and in any other way.
-For every time the Goverment of USA used my affective and romantic life, the most intimate life of any person, as their psychosocial warfare field and as their psychosocial bombing field, playing with my feelings over and over again as if they were disposable tissue to throw to the trash upon their convenience…
-For every time I have tweeted and posted the truth and absolutely NO ONE listened, no one cared, no one healed the wound, no one dared to stand for dignity and a truth-based society…
-For every time the Goverment of USA has boasted “transparency” and “peace” at the first time they are the first ones denying the truth and denying dignity systematically; when they are the first ones who keep eforcing civil slavery with more and more escalating psychosocial violence and agresivity…
-For every time I had been enshoven false future projections… denying me the right to self-determine my own future, besides also denying me having any kind of present personal sovereignty at all…
-For every extreme humiliation and dignity rape I had veen forced to endure simply to fit the narrative social control performance of the power-abuse-boaster in shift…
-For every time I had been forced to endure how an innocent had been abused —a dog, a baby, even unborn, when it has been wanted to project I was not being allowed to have a baby of my own, except if raped, because there was no way for me be able to form a family ow my own, not even of dogs: I am property of the Goverment and of all those who keep me as civil slave, I am not person— and I had been forced to endure totally hopeless, totally unallowed to stop the abuse of an innocent that I knew was being tortured with increased and targeted cruelty, merely to torture me as I was forced to witness such horrible abuse and being unable to stop it, including when pets had been murdered and babies had been tortured…
-For every time I had been denied being fertile as God had created me to be and also has called me to be, including cultural fertility: I had been enforced since years ago to a personhood exile, until reaching the civil death state I currently enforced in…
-For every time I had been socially gaslighted to believe someone was family, when they were not… and everybody knew it, and nobody told the truth, I was let to suffer every heart break, one by one, over and over again…
-For every time I had been gaslighted to believe I would have money —especially that I would be able to earn money by my own— when it was a lie, everybody knew it and I was let to suffer every time I was left without money again when as a matter of truth, it was calculated, everybody knew and NOBODY stopped it nor told the truth: I would remain without money and without property that I bought… because no matter how hard I worked, I had never had the right of having property of my own… Not even this cellphone is property of my own… Even the aids that are given by the Goverment —example: unenployment— had been straightfoward denied when I had the right for them, or manipulated to receive them according to the social war targets and not according to my inherent dignity…
-For every time someone did something that they know triggers anger in me, forcing me to keep constantly in inhuman levels of frutration for issues it’s very well known they cause anger, and they are still being done very deliberately and calculatedly… like forcing me to consume social manipulated content over and over again… Once upon a time, I believed in a society in which empathy said that no harm on purpose should be done… that society is gone since long time ago: whatever is needed to be done to enforce any social war tactic, it will be done, no matter how much anger it causes to me to be forced to be used in such a degrading way…
-For every time I had been forced to endure being forbidden to receive equal services: in online stores or psysical stores, in apps, while using AI, in wherever place I go, in whatever way I shop or spend money or ask for a service… because everything social in my case is exploited as social war ammunition…
-For every time I had been forced to be exposed to toxic levels of social gaslighting of any kind…
-For every time some had faked a deliberately artificial “normalcy” tone while a whole terrorist social war is unfolding over and over again through me forced to remain the social war field of both sides…
-For every time my own nature had not been allowed to be a person, nor to simply be as myself, due being totally controlled by either’s side of this social war civil torture/bioterrotist torture control tactics, sometimes even daring to try to deny me my sense of reality, one psy ops warfare after another, totally robbing me any kind of real posibility of BE person… totally controlling my capability of buy something… totally controlling my capability of having a work, to the extent of leaving me forced into full social dissability status… totally controlling my capability of sleep, either denying me the meds I need to sleep in the middle of torture, or —as the progenitors directly do— manipulating the toxic gassing in a way I am only allowed to sleep consistenly from 6am to 10am, according to the my convenient sleep schedule according to those who slave me, instead of letting me sleep according to my own nature and chosen sleep time…
-For every time I had been enforced into total social communion break, into more and more social hospice state, more and more civil death state, enforced more and more into the unbeing with more and more civil slavery… until reaching this apersonal state, enduring each dignity rape after another without being able to do absolutely nothing to defend myself…
-For every time I had been robbed of my own memories, of my own history, of my own art, of my own ceeativity, of my own personal narrative, of forming my own sense of time, culture and being…
-For every time that I had been forced to assume as “normal” a totally criminal and fake “normalcy”, especially done by a Goverment that keeps enforcing a whole psy ops through my personal formation, miltarizing who I am as person, so the only way I am allowed to function “socially” is as a civil slave that will only be allowed to funtion according to what is convenient for military purposes, because I am being owned as a military base that is a target for psychosocial shootings over and over again, in the very same way Vieques was possesed by the military as a “campo de práctica de tiro…” It´s exactly the same: the sole purpose of allowing have some extent of social functional capabilites is to exploit all “my” social-civil capabilies for psy ops social shootings that keep being enforced more and more cruelly, over and over again…
-For every time I had been denied to create what I am called to create and to share how I am called to share; for every time I had been given hacked iPhones, Pc, Mac Books, iPads and cellphones, only to others being able to have to control of what and how I can share something, or when I can create or with which time limits I must restrain myself, even not being allowed to have a memory of my own of my own memories (the memories of “my” devices keep being hacked over and over again…); for every time a software I use or an app I use to create intellectually… had been hacked to not let me do my best or create how I am called to, implementing intellectual sabotage (not being able to control my own words because what I write is remotely surveiled) to sabotage or not allow my free and best intellectual expression possible…
-For every time I had been denied the possibility of celebrating a true birthday, a true Thanksgiving, a true Christmas, a true New Year, a true Epiphany, a true Saint Valentine´s day, a true Easter, a true new Pentecost… for every time I have not been allowed to truly celebrate life in a home truly of my own, along a true family of my own, celebrating it as I had always loved to celebrate all life holidays and celebrations… forced instead to celebrate whatever I celebrate necessarily exposed to more and more narcissistic abuse or psychologically toxic environments, given gifts that do not come from the heart, given words that lack of being and meaning, given scraps of what should truly a celebration of life is meant to be…
-For every time I had been stolen any true dignity possible and denied any chance to be even able to grow, and Jesus Charity still, miracously, make possible for me to keep growing on, glowing on and blooming on… flowing on and on as the best person I could be in each circumstance…
When I am finally able to be who I am in Jesus Charity and who He calls me to be…
I will wear a skirt with a communion square (with a granny square) per each of those times I had been denied to be as I had been created to be, per each of those times I wasn’t allowed to be knit in communion as He envisions it for every children of God… wearing it as an American attire: witg a growtcha shirt, and a butterfly crochet cardigan that is also a growthcha crochet, due the meaning that celebrates the freedom of choosing growing together in communion giving light to the Word, giving light to Him, Jesus Charity, as we keep raising Him up in all those we allow in the future to grow best, glow best and bloom best….
And I will simply wear it to bloom —as I walk as He walks and the breeze flows on the skirt as I walk— as His light becomes more and more visible: how beautiful His radiation of new albor is, full of vivid colors and a new culture of new life that adores Him with our whole growth!
And I will simple wear it… because His new albor is for all, it can’t remain hidden, no matter to what has been done to me through my whole existance as civil slave, even unto being enforced civil death…
You can see how this growtcha American traditional attire seems in the following picture, that I had to cover the face because I was denied to plasmate it with my own personality and personal identity… but it doesn’t matter, I will eventually do it when I am on my own, outside of the reach of a Goverment that enforces personhood selection. For now, you can see how the attire would be seen in the following picture:
I will wear this with a maga flower in the hair (you can wear this attire with any kind of flower of your own culture —the maga flowers is a native Puerto Rican flower— because this is kind of an American continental traditional attire: crochet is an art that can only be created by hand, every piece is original, every crochet work is unique, and that is the way of Be America, the lovefull: everyone is a unique work of Love, a unique way of “BeLoved”, a unique person that grows best, glow bests and bloom best… Simply try to use American yarn, and the flower at the hair must be growtched like the shirt —with silver and gold paint—) because this is growtcha crochet: a crochet to celebrate growing together in communion, with #CrocheteoIntenso that forms an #IntenseHookUp culture; a handknit growing-together-in-communion culture, each stitch a social communion tie, each creative project a fraternal bond to grow best, to glow best, to bloom best…
You can see an image of a growtcha maga flower here:
Enjoy growing together in communion!
#NewAlborForAll #IntenseHookUp #CrocheteoIntenso
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