It is not easy to palabrize everything that happened in last night’s dream. I will try to do it —the parts that I am meant to share now, because not everything is meant to be shared right now— in the humblest way possible because, with God’s Love, humility is always the way of learning to walk more and more like He walked.

In last night’s dream, we had an amazing conversation among brothers, and I, the sister, was the only woman among all. Yes, I had flashbacks of Jesus Charity and the Holy Family of New Albor, even one flashback of a beautiful contemplative conversation with Our Lady of New Albor, but in the actual dream, I was the only woman present.

Well, this time, the Archangels were all three present, and what Saint Gabriel told me was truly, truly, truly beautiful: “Rejoice, full of grace, princess of Heaven, because you will be called “mother” through generations…” Of all that he said, that is the only thing I will quote in explicit, literal words, because it deeply impacted me, not in a bad sense… but in a true sense: I am still not able to see what he means, and in the middle of the life stage I am, in which I am more and more conscious that my biological years of being able to have a biological son or daughter are practically over, well… being called “mother of faith” and being told I would be called “our mother” for generations to come is way deeper than anyone could be able to realize.

What happened last night was not exactly like the annunciation, at least not in the biological sense… I already gave my fiat in that Santiago´s way 20 years ago, and I already contemplated my consecration to charity in Roncesvalles… but as right now my “becoming” is developing, he is right: as we become more and more conscious of the responsibilities we embrace as “full of grace”, our lives change forever according to the living Word of God that keeps being incarnated in us as living Church, as living Eucharist (that second part was explained by Mikhael, not by Gabriel).

My family of heaven, which has accompanied me through this journey, has also been part of this “learning to see”: it is through me that these spiritual fathers have also learned to see what they should have seen long ago, and having men around you who acknowledge that things should not have happened that way is not exactly normal in my life narrative. Through the years, they have told me their many sins, without telling me exactly where or to whom they committed them; they simply reflected with me about their mistakes about their priestly and spiritual fatherhood roles… but last night, it was finally clear, wide clear: I, a woman, was the one who helped them to be conscious of everything they should have been done and didn´t, not due malice, but because they weren´t conscious as they are now, thanks of how I had allowed the Holy Spirit act in me, of how things do should be,

I it’s a very, very, very humbling experience seeing someone correcting himself simply because they are helped properly to see what they weren´t able to see before… because if they would have been able to see it by themselves, their “institutional pride” (understand “institution” as “Catholic Church”) would haven´t allowed them to act as they are acting now, with the whole humility that they should have been able to incarnate since they began their respective ministries.

Men are not meant to be able to see the whole scenario on their own. By nature, they need the help of the being, the help of a woman. It is not normal at all in the Catholic Church to recognize not only the full equality of womanhood and manhood “spiritual parenthood” (just to give a simple, practical example of this: seminarians are not required to have a spiritual mother, but they do are required to have spiritual fathers… and many examples of the lack of ecclesial feminine genius can be given, I am only saying one right now, for illustrative purposes). but also, the explicit need for a woman to make men able to be conscious of how they should act. We don´t think that at this time in human history, there is a need to realize the importance of men to make women realize how they are called to be: history has plenty of examples of women being told by men how they can be. What is needed is a realization that that happens in both ways, not only in one… and as man becomes more conscious and able to see more, their wrong acting will also be corrected. We both need each other because we, both man and woman, were created in His image and likeness. This is how it is meant to be.

I have explained this before: ontologically speaking, men are co-creators of the act, and women are co-creators of the being. Both are equally needed for a personal human formation that is ONE, the one we are all meant to be in unity, not only between being and acting and between all the personal formative processes, but also between our living bodies and the heart of Jesus. Both unities can be fully achieved in their truest way possible only through the infusion and action of the Holy Spirit. Such ontological happens in everyone, including atheists, but it is the Holy Spirit who can grant the fullest consciousness of all the repercussions of such unity, in all senses possible.

We, women, have been granted by God’s Love the amazing capability to help to be, to help to see and become conscious… and no man can be asked to become more responsible for their acts if they are unable to see first. In the same way, no woman can be asked to become more responsible for her words if she is unable to realize the “weight” of her words first.

Now, I am reaching a point in my life where I am starting to become “responsible” for my words. This developmental maturity doesn´t happen at the same time in everyone. As a matter of fact, my whole family of heaven reached in Heaven the maturity to realize what they should realize on Earth… That means: it can happen that the humility must be such that you must realize how you should have been acted or how you should have “palabrized” your life once you reach Heaven, by pure mercy of God, not because you deserve it at all, and because you had such tremendous humility you were able to grasp the fullness of Heaven´s grace in the way you should have done it Earth…

Your humility is more powerful in heaven than anyone can realize. In the same way no one will be able to love more in Heaven than how much he or she loved in Earth, no one will be able to be humbler in Heaven than how much he or she humbled himself or herself on Earth… and the degree of your humility on Earth can be by itself a reason to be granted the sainthood grace state of Heaven. Humility is the beginning of Heaven on Earth: the humbler you are, the more capability of loving like God you have. Even the worst of sinners can be granted heaven if there is enough humility to confess in the proper way that Jesus Charity is God-Love that makes all things anew, and you clearly know how such a huge sinner I am; I don´t need to clarify that further… and Heaven begins to be lived in this Earth, as we let the Holy Spirit inform us, conform us, realize us, project us and connect us in Love, with Love and by Love, loving God, ourselves and everyone as He has loved us first. I will say this in Spanish because I was told this in Spanish in the dream: habemos personas que nos ganamos el Cielo no por haber sido santos, sino por ser lo suficientemente humildes como para dejar a la gracia actuar hasta alcanzar la santidad, porque la santidad es posible para absolutamente todo aquel que acoja la gracia para alcanzarla y se deje ayudar a ver como Dios Amor nos ve… I am one of those, and being granted such kind of grace is also the giftedness of a lifetime

Men in the Church need to realize, in a very humble way, that women are as equally necessary as them for the Church to function as the living Church and the living Eucharist it is meant to be. I have explained this before, too: the living Church is a “she.” She is the Bride of the Holy Spirit, the living body of the Heart of Jesus.

Saint Raphael’s words were powerful, too: No one had been able to see before in the whole history of the Catholic Church what is being granted to men to see now, thanks to a woman, the same way he cured the blindness of Tobit.

It is in the context of what I was explained in this dream that I now share the final revised version of the text “On the Growth of the Human Personal Formation: the Nature” that I already shared for the first on the day of Saint Michael the Archangel. It took me another week to complete the revision. The version I am sharing now doesn´t need further revisions at this point.

To reach the point of sharing that text in the way I am doing it, I have gone through several developmental stages: the beginning of be (school years), finding the freedom to be (Faculty of Humanities), discovering who I am (University of Navarra), unleashing the creative being (Universidad Central de Bayamon), learning to be (faculty of Education)… until finally reaching the “Becoming” point I have begun to reach as my words begin to have the weight they are meant to have and I begin to palabrize them the way I was called to be. I am not still in the stage of “being one”: I am still limited by my environmental parallel realities… but I am in a huge process of breaking all those parallel realities and simply being the one I had always meant to be: one as unity of being and act, one as unity of living body and Jesus Charity´s Heart, one as living Eucharist and the action of the Holy Spirit. That “being one” is the next stage… to finally realize the stage all human beings are meant to reach according to the inherent dignity of their nature: the stage of “I am,” following the image and likeness of our Creator, the “I-am-Who-I-am.”

In the same way, the Virgin Mary asked how such an annunciation could be possible if she wasn´t known by any man, I also asked how such an “annunciation” like the one that happened yesterday could happen without “being known” by any family on Earth; my only family is my spiritual family of heaven. I got my answers, which I am still processing. I, princes of Heaven, will also be called “mother of faith” and forever be “our mother” for generations to come.” You can clearly see this is not related to a biological immaculate conception: this is all being done in a very social sense, not biological. Don´t expect this to be a biological pregnancy; it is an intellectual-social-ecclesial conception, as Jesus Charity, the integraction as a personal formative model, and the theology of light had been.

Yes, I confess I am very, very humbled by everything that happened last night, even if I am not yet able to fully grasp all the meanings I should be grasping, as I was made aware.

Being also called “madre de la Patria” is a very humbling thing to happen. That is another very unusual thing: it is quite often talked about founding fathers in history, but you never read about founding mothers. I have no memory of a single instance of a “founding mother” being named in the whole spectrum of history courses I had been taught, and I had studied a lot of history courses through the decades, besides being a history teacher myself in a period of my life.

You may “digest” everything I have told here in the best way you can. I am simply telling what happened in last night´s dream in the humblest way possible because I have seen the huge power of humility in Heaven.

So, here is the revised version of “On the Growth of the Human Personal Formation: the Nature.” May it help you to be more conscious of who you are and who you are called to be, the same way I am becoming progressively more conscious of who I am and who I am calling to be as I palabrize, share, and confront intellectually what has been shared in that text.

The only detail that is not being mentioned in the text that I could have mentioned but chose to let the text remain as it is and not change once more is the detail that my ex-thesis director was the first one to explain what the expression “being a late bloomer” means. He considered me a late bloomer —you can see another such example in the original Disney movie “Mulan”, in the conversation with the cherry blossom flower— and… among other things, he was quite right when he said that, far way more right than I was able to recognize at the moment he explained me that.

Everything that is essentially needed to understand the intellectual conception of integraction as the first personal formation model ever being known by humanity has been told in this text. In this text I evidently did not explain everything that I have gone through, not that was the intention: I simply mentioned what was essential to understand the intellectual conception of integraction, doing it in the humblest way possible.

We hope reading this text can be as blessing as conceiving it, preserving it, and sharing it has been to me. All this is as epic as Jesus Charity himself has always been. May the moon always remain as a powerful sign of who we are meant to be as humanity, as human family, as… amoreros: viva Dios Amor, viva Jesus Caridad… even unto life, even unto death. As Ro 14, 7-12 says:

None of us lives for oneself, and no one dies for oneself.

For if we live, we live for the Lord, and if we die, we die for the Lord; so then, whether we live or die, we are the Lord’s.

For this is why Christ died and came to life, that he might be Lord [the King] of both the dead and the living.

Why then do you judge your brother? Or you, why do you look down on your brother? For we shall all stand before the judgment seat of God;

for it is written:

“As I live, says the Lord, every knee shall bend before me,

and every tongue shall give praise to God.”

So [then] each of us shall give an account of himself [to God].

The text is being attached at the end of this blog post in both Word and PDF versions. In order to make you able to clearly distinguish between the revised and the non-revised versions, in the revised version I wrote my name only with the initials. The most important parts that changed in content in the revised version are writen in color red. The color red means: either it is new content being added to clarify the text better, or it was already in the original text, but the clarification that has been made there is important enough to be written in red and let the reader be explicitly aware of the change of palabrization. Not all the changes among both versions had been marked with red, only the most important ones in order for the reader to be able to grasp the truest meaning of the text.

Let´s keep growing together in communion and let´s keep becoming who we are called to be!